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tobysbliss · 1 year ago

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sometimes i wish people could properly understand why i apologize for falling asleep before or during a conversation

#‘its okay’ no it isnt #its not okay #because if i fell asleep before talking to you that means i missed out on talking to you #and now ive talked to you less than i want to #and i barely get to talk to you as is #so ‘its okay theres next time / right now’ yeah but i missed THAT TIME #and then what if they end up not replying until the day later?#i have to go so long without talking to one of my favorite people #and then that ruins my whole mood because its that theyre one of the few people who actually keep me happy #and are the reason im still getting through this shit #so what am i supposed to do going what would be practically 2 days without talking to that person??#its not their fault #it isnt mine but it feels like its mine #because i know i couldve stayed up #if i would if sat up instead of laying down #took the blankets off so i wasnt warm and comfortable #i’d be freezing and uncomfortable so i wouldnt be able to fall asleep #and i know that #but i stayed comfortable anyway #so that makes it my fault

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mynnthia · 9 months ago

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was talking with a friend about how some of dunmeshi fаndom misunderstands kabru's initial feelings towards laios.

to sum up kabru's situation via a self-contained modernized metaphor:

kabru is like a guy who lost his entire family in a highly traumatic car accident. years later he joins a discord server and takes note of laios, another server member who seems interesting, so they start chatting. then laios reveals his special interest and favorite movie of all time is David Cronenberg's Crash (1996), and invites kabru to go watch a demolition derby with him

#dungeon meshi #delicious in dungeon #kabru #kabru already added laios as a discord friend. everyone else in the server can see laios excitedly asking kabru to go with him #what would You even Do in this situation. how would YOU feel?#basically: kabru isnt a laios-hater! hes just in shock bc Thats His Trauma. the key part is kabru still says yes #bc he wants to get to know laios. to understand why laios would be so fascinated by something horrific to him #and ALSO bc even while in shock kabru can still tell laios has unique expertise + knowledge that Could be used for Good #even if kabru doesnt fully trust laios yet (bc kabru just started talking to the guy 2 hours ago. they barely know each other)#kabru also understands that getting to know ppl (esp laios) means having to get to know their passions. even if it triggers his trauma here #but thats too much to fit in this metaphor/analogy. this is NOT an AU! its not supposed to cover everything abt kabru or laios' character!#its a self-contained metaphor written Specifically to be more easily relatable+thus easy to understand for general ppl online #(ie. assumed discord users. hence why i said (a non-specific) 'discord server' and not something specific like 'car repair subreddit')#its for ppl who mightve not fully grasped kabru's character+intentions and think hes being mean/'chaotic'/murderous.#to place ppl in kabru's shoes in an emotionally similar situation thats more possible/grounded in irl experiences and contexts.#and also for the movie punchline #mynn.txt #dm text #crossposting my tweets onto here since my friends suggested so

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vaguely-concerned · 2 months ago

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the strength it must have taken for illario to not immediately go full 'lmao since when have you even had a kiss hello lucanis' sibling violence mode during the café talk. inspirational. rook and lucanis really were doing all that right in front of his salad huh

#lucanis is being SO cringe with that line right out there in public and I would die for him. it's just such a weird thing to say #tbf if anyone in the world is used to the insane things lucanis says and would go 'yes yes lucanis waxing poetic about coffee #in ways normal people reserve for trying to get in someone's pants (the roast won't fuck you lucanis)#we've all heard it' like it's all normal I suppose it would be illario. and also he's too busy with the 'shit fuck shit he's not dead #he's not dead of the family members 'supposed' to be dead we're at two definite failures out of two and woe me if the twain should meet #if that IS a demon in there it sure talks exactly in the same bizarre way only my cousin does #does that mean anything what the fuck do I do who do I kill about this' internal monologue I guess #dragon age #dragon age: the veilguard #dragon age: the veilguard spoilers #dragon age spoilers #illario dellamorte #lucanis dellamorte #rook x lucanis #rookanis #I mean he does very much say that to a non-romancing rook too which only makes it all the more delightfully odd #is it a very lucaniscore way of testing the waters. is it just how he always talks about coffee. many plausible approaches here #no one forced him to bring up kisses and 'you should try it' out of the blue like that is all I'm saying. he could have acted normal #(theoretically)#i feel there are reasons to read some stuff into it lol #lucanis when rye says he prefers tea: it's so over cautious overture I don't quite understand myself yet gently rebuffed #lucanis when rye takes him up on the 'so what should a first kiss be' theme: oh we're so back!!!! wait. what. what do I do now #what is this #it's kind of really sweet that rook answers with their own playfully florid beverage based barely hidden metaphor at the end too #matching freaks and having fun with it #as far as lucanis is concerned rye's only true flaws are 1) prefers tea to coffee (oh well. no one can be perfect. cross-cultural love #can conquer all even in this) and 2) weird taste in interior design (did we really HAVE to bring your 15 foot tall corpse statues #with us home rook. I can understand a tasteful skull here and there but this seems excessive. well if it makes you happy I guess)

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turtleblogatlast · 1 year ago

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AU where Leo is trapped in the Prison Dimension for months instead of minutes and the only way he gets by with his sanity intact is through recording himself talking to his wrist comm.

When they finally manage to get Leo back and make him rest up to heal, Donnie can’t help but listen to the recordings left behind.

He’s not sure what exactly he’s expecting, only that his subconscious is screaming at him that it has to be heartbreaking, that it has to be torturous.

Instead, what Donnie is subject to is a full thousand hours’ worth of Jupiter Jim and Lou Jitsu crossover fanfiction. More than one part in the series. Spanning well over a million words.

(The worst part is that it’s actually good.)

#rottmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rottmnt headcanons #donnie keeps the comms going on in the background as he works #when he gets to the end he’s like what the hell…where’s the rest #donnie: leo where’s part nine #leo barely cognizant after not needing sleep for months: whuh-#donnie: you can’t leave it at a cliffhanger. leo. leo where’s the next part.#listen leo has a great memory for his special interests this is CANON plus he’s a great talker so he would totally be able to do this frfr #whenever he needs to be quiet he’s SILENT but otherwise he’s regaling the exploits of his idols to the captive audience that is The Photo #sometimes Krang sneaks up on him and just listens to him talk like ????#it starts both as leo trying to comfort himself with his favorite things PLUS comfort himself with thoughts of his father #as splinter makes his own crossover fanfiction when sick lol plus he’s Literally Lou Jitsu #and yes krang ALSO gets a bit invested #leo notices the reduction of Ouch but hey more time for rambling fanfic for him 👍#idk leo’s a damn good actor/liar/planner/schemer and I genuinely think that can pivot into storytelling so well #the literal second mikey’s hands heal donnie zooms to his side with hand stabilizers and a request to draw ‘scene 82 from recording 3’#mikey’s like what #so obvs now HE needs to listen as he works #he too gets invested #he comes across raph who mentions having trouble sleeping #mikey: have I got the podcast fanfic for you!#it only somewhat helps raph sleep #somewhat bc sometimes he forces himself to stay awake to hear the rest #yes these recordings go to the whole fam and leo is none the wiser #they don’t even mean to hide it it just never comes up lol #it’s only when donnie FINALLY makes it to the end of the recordings that he confronts leo to continue the story #leo: oH YOU HEARD ALL THAT HUH-

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stiffyck · 3 months ago

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I WISH ARO HEADCANONS WERE MORE POPULAR IN FANDOMS

#THERES LIKE. BARELY ANY.#IF I GET LUCKY ILL SEE AN ACE HEADCANON #BUT VERY RARELY DO I SEE ARO HEADCANONS #SOBBING #stiff talk #my favorite thing is thinking about how many characters i see as aromantic but then i go to the fandom tag or to that characters tag and #everyone is shipping them and theres like 2 posts total about that character being ace and 1 post about them being aroace #man im just a bit sad about all this dont mind me #yea yea i know the whole “if you wanna see something make it yourself” thing but see heres the thing: im tired #i just wanna be able to go through a tag and see people share similar ideas and headcanons without me having to make all the work myself #and i bet theres plenty other people who feel the same #and even if there is a character thats like. somewhat aroace coded in some way people still find a way to go “but then they fall in love”#and like yea have fun or whatever but i just idk it just feels very lonely sometimes yknow #miss the times when i didnt think about this so much #cuz now that im older and know that IM aspec its like. oh. i wanna see more characters like me! but theres like basically none #SORRY FOR THE RANT LMFAO #ignore this im just feeling silly

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muirmarie · 6 months ago

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jim being canonically the shortest one of the triumvirate is genuinely so important to me lmao, like yesssssss, let that beefy babe be shorter than both his boyfriends!!!!

#james t kirk #star trek #star trek tos #st:tos #it's me and i against the tide of ppl shrinking bones lmaooo. which is fine obviously whatever makes ppl happy - go forth & shrink the doc!#but jim canonically being the shortest.......i love it so much.......he absolutely lowkey has a chip on his shoulder about it.......#he is SO beefy and strong and can haul both his boyfriends around!!!! but it doesn't change the fact that he's shorter <33333333 #it's only like an inch difference between him and bones but jim hates it!!! and also pretends he doesn't hate it <3333 #jim kirk my beloved!!!!!!!!!!!#there's some casual comment made about it and then *six hours* later jim is like 'AND FOR THE RECORD I AM *BARELY* SHORTER THAN YOU'#and bones is just '............what? where is this coming from???? and jim's like 'THAT REMARK THE PRIESTESS MADE SIX HOURS AGO'#and bones is just '..........when we're no longer in the middle of a firefight we should probably talk about this and why you're so upset'#'in the meantime though can we please get out of this firefight because i don't wanna die'#spock; SUPER helpfully: and as the doctor is taller than you captain he does make a more visible target #bones; scrubbing his hand across his face: SPOCK YOU'RE NOT HELPING #spock: .....i did not realize you expected me to #mcspirk

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asgardian--angels · 5 days ago

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there's meta to be had about just how much of viktor's arc is about loneliness and the blatant visuals they use in his evolution about metamorphosis, butterflies, cocoons, in utero, etc, as he molts from a soft, vulnerable larva who keeps getting hurt in his bids for love and acceptance, into a hardened final form complete with an exoskeleton acting as both physical and emotional armor. a shield keeping his emotions in and the pain of loneliness and rejection out, until it's cracked and his humanity is forcefully exposed. like. sorry if it's just the entomologist in me but this was blatantly obvious the very first time i watched the show and I've been continually surprised that no one's really pointed this out. as a certified lonely person it struck such a deep cord with me, when he accepted his fate, his path ahead, to be one he'd have to walk alone, finally putting up that last seemingly impenetrable wall around his soft parts (but keeping the blanket, this signal that he never asked for this, and that he's not unreachable). So much of his s2 arc centered around not just his desire to right his wrongs and help the world, but to connect with others and not feel alone, both of which got twisted by the hexcore. His attempt to create a hivemind where no one would ever suffer loneliness or rejection or loss, and he would feel their souls with him as well (even though that was an illusion in the end, he truly believed it). The whole 'I now speak with all their voices' but he's just floating in an empty space. And for the consequence of the glorious evolution to be eternal solitude, it just drives home how that's the worst possible fate imaginable for Viktor.

#arcane #viktor arcane #jayvik #arcane meta #look i barely post analyses but i've been on a roll lately and i just wanna say i'm theorizing CONSTANTLY. i havent stopped for three month #i just havent posted it.#anyway i felt the need to say this one even in rough form because it's. such powerful imagery they use and yet barely anyone talks about it #given esp the canonical butterfly motifs used over and over and over #viktor's so fucking alone in the last year of his life. he shrinks in on himself. he's deeply hurt. getting rejected in the council room wa #like IT for him. the defeat when he finally gives up and gives in.#i just. bro. this is a big part of why i identify so strongly with viktor as a character because it's so much about his loneliness #i may clean this up and post an actual meta about it if i feel like it. this is really one of the most important parts of his arc imo #mage viktor leaving jayce down in that ravine. watching him but not intervening. in a way forcing jayce to experience his loneliness #idk how you watch that scene with The Line and Viktor standing alone after hex-Sky disappears and not get a knife through the heart #at feeling his utter soul-crushing loneliness #he's now alone in the astral plane. no one could understand him before because of what made him different #now he's alone again. no one can perceive him how he actually is. again and again no one sees him for who he is

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hrethas · 2 months ago

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merry dougmas birthday commission for @commsroom!!!!!!!!

a contemplative doug in the afterglow of the party, if you will

#HAPPY BIRTHDAY KING!!!!!!#i was desperately trying to get this done for the 25th.....oughhh..........#that's minkowski coming in with apple kolaches through the door #and hera sat talking to someone at the table #his shirt (barely legible) says 'DON'T PANIC' because you know. he's 42. hitchhiker's reference #there's a few details here i might share later if i can #i think like. the thesis of this is just sitting in the comfort of the people who love you. simple as #and the postcanon triangle of support that hera-minkowski-eiffel form #wolf 359 #w359 #doug eiffel #hera w359

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starcurtain · 4 months ago

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I know I've talked a lot about Alhaitham actually being one of the funniest characters in Genshin Impact, but every time I think about him, I find something new to laugh at.

Alhaitham's character stories and personal criticisms of Kaveh largely hinge on one specific point: That Kaveh's genius intellect and artistic abilities are incongruous with his idealism. Kaveh possesses more talent than a selfless person should reasonably have, leaving him vulnerable to constantly being taken advantage of.

However, Alhaitham states these complaints about Kaveh's personality while having the exact same problem himself.

Alhaitham is literally the definition of "personality and talents do not match." Sir, you are the pot calling the kettle black.

It's a given: Alhaitham is exceedingly competent. He is intelligent, rational, and capable of being impartial when needed. Despite being a slacker as the Akademiya's scribe, during his stint as the Acting Grand Sage, the game goes out of its way to note--in several places--that Alhaitham was actually going above and beyond what was expected of him, taking the position very seriously, uncovering and fixing major issues in the Akademiya, and demonstrating a deep care for the sanctity and future of the Akademiya as a whole when Sumeru's people's will to research and learn declined after the collapse of the Akasha.

By all accounts, Alhaitham is (was) a fantastic Grand Sage. Compared to Azar, who is shown as inherently self-aggrandizing and unconcerned with Sumeru's well-being, Alhaitham genuinely did his best during his brief time as Sumeru's leader, protecting students' research, concerning himself with how to address the people's problems, and even diving in to solve mysteries that normally would have been left for the matra. As Acting Grand Sage, we're told his behavior and judgments were fair, and he addressed problems immediately and with his full effort.

In short, there is literally no one else more qualified to be Grand Sage than Alhaitham.

And yet, despite possessing every talent needed to be the leader of a nation, Alhaitham doesn't have the personality for it. He has every single trait a good leader requires... And yet he refuses to be a leader. His own talent vastly exceeds the slow-paced life his personality leads him to seek, making his particular abilities more incongruous with his values than Kaveh's--by a mile. People keep trying to promote him into positions of leadership because his talents are so obvious, and yet he does everything in his power to deny his own abilities and instead fly under the radar--and under the level of his full potential too.

Awful hypocritical for you to claim Kaveh's talents don't match his personality when yours match even less, Alhaitham...

#genshin impact #alhaitham #kaveh #“You should be less selfless Kaveh so your personality and your talents will finally match.”#“Call me when you stop faking incompetence so you can get paid to read on the job ALHAITHAM.”#Scribe “I can't let them know I can read clocks or they'll expect me to show up to the meetings on time” Alhaitham #should probably not talk about talents that exceed one's values #Imagine spending literal years nagging someone #about how they're selling themself short #while going around calling yourself a “feeble scholar” so no one expects you to do any actual work #Imagine being like “I am the least qualified for this position and I'm putting in only the bare minimum”#when your “bare minimum” is 105746060 times better than the last guy #fake idgafer #for real

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htub · 2 years ago

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I really like that they made Jor-El speak Kryptonian and Clark unable to understand him. The whole "aliens speak English" thing that happens in every goddamn media has bothered me all my life. Ik sometimes Clark just gets zapped in the brain for insta-second language but that always felt like a cheap shortcut.

Jor-El had a lot on his mind when he set up that magic spaceship okay. The world was ending and he was trying to do as much as he could before time ran out so he could be there for his son. He was rushing. He likely didn't consider Kal would be raised with a whole different language and not know any Kryptonian nor have anyone to teach him.

#my adventures with superman #two talks #he still might get zapped with kryptonian but at least it wasn't immediate #let there be a language barrier #it hits home so hard too bc i barely speak my mom's language and can't really talk to my family members bc of iz #it*#that's what being raised on a different planet IS! It's isolating and sad bc that's your FAMILY and you can't even understand them #fucking love superman #clark is so close and yet so far bc everything he craves to know about himself is Right There #but he doesn't speak the language of his own people and has no way to learn #it's heartbreaking and i'm so fucking here for it

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vaguely-concerned · 3 months ago

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lucanis reading romance novels out loud to spite in the seventh attempt to explain to him what sex is and spite bemusedly being like 'wow you people really get up to that shit I thought that was just a bit mortals did or something'

#I personally don't think he'd be particularly interested one way or the other but the whole thing does sound kind of wild #on first introduction doesn't it. you would be puzzled #dragon age #dragon age: the veilguard #dragon age: the veilguard spoilers #dragon age spoilers #lucanis dellamorte #spite #is it spoilers. well the fact that lucanis canonically likes romance novels kind of is I guess lol #he and bellara really are unexpected twin souls in a couple of things #additional thought: lucanis reading romance novels out loud to spite AND rook while they rest with their head in his lap #and he strokes their hair. rook is there for moral support and help b/c while I don't think lucanis would be shy about talking about it #there must be a limit one can reach in having The Talk with a being that barely gets physical reality and lives inside you #rye with an infinity of affection: lucanis this might be the best and funniest thing that has ever happened to me please keep going #I had a morning thinking about spite a lot. can you tell

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twin-yards · 2 years ago

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it is completely one hundred percent baffling to me that any of the foxes would come away from witnessing neil and andrew's reunion in baltimore with the opinion that their relationship was just hate fucking . like my brother in christ are you blind

#andrew was FERAL .#he fucking choked KEVIN like COME ON #and he was like RACING into the room to see neil and #he was all like *tugs neil's hoodie to get his attention* *threatens anyone who tried to come close to them (abby)*#he was all like 'i dont trust them to give you back.' come on man .#and neil was looking at andrew . most definitely Like That. when he was talking to abby #neil was all battered and bruised from barely dodging a fucking death sentence and he sees andrews partly red eye and thats #the first thing he talks about #*lightly taps a thumb against the bruise at andrews eye* i didnt know theyd staged a riot #they were all like Looking at each other and ..... idk i am not explaining this well enough but .#you don't need me to. you all read it #it was So Fucking Obvious my god #im crying bc even neil thought nicky wasnt far from the truth at that point #like he could not have been more incorrect istg .#aftg #andreil #neil josten #andrew minyard #all for the game #mi ne

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fairylando · 6 months ago

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somebody needs to study the gargantuan levels of cunt carlos used to serve at tororosso .. this is literally the peak embodiment of "the devil's favorite prince", "il diavolo rosso".

he is lucifer, the morning star.

he is the planet venus.